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The Art of Trusting (in times of terror)

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The Art of Trusting (in times of terror)

Dear you,
Thanks for taking the time to read this and care enough.
It’s been a hard couple of days. So shocking. So sudden.
I can’t really say the right things about what happened in Paris. So I won’t. No words can describe the pain, the sadness, the despair, the feeling of total paralysis.
But I will say this. (And I use my words extremely sparingly, as I don’t know how else to put it.)
It’s hard to trust.
… (Wait, what, trust?! How can you talk about trust in this situation??!!)

What Hurts More?

So yes, it is incredibly hard to trust. Of course it is, because it HURTS when your trust is broken. Yes. It hurts. It hurts like hell and you cry without end when it happens. But I want to ask you and myself the following question. What hurts more? Trusting with the knowledge that it can hurt when something happens that tries to trample that trust? Or the fact of not trusting at all?
I’m sure many people would argue for the first one as it seems the more obvious one. If you don’t give something away (like in this case trust), it can’t be taken or stolen from you, and you can’t get hurt, right?
Wrong. So wrong.
It’s so wrong it even hurts thinking about possibly living in a world in which everyone thinks like this. It hurts because the first one we hurt when living like that, is ourself. And this is really ironic, because the primary reason we don’t dare to trust is self-preservation. We think we are protecting ourselves from something by withholding our trust, but we are in fact harming our own fragile little selves. Every. Single. Time.
But why does it hurt ? I think it hurt so much because that little fragile self of ours can’t possibly be whole, be happy, be elated or inspired when we block the first reflex that any living creature has as it is born into this world, the reflex of trust. Without it, we wouldn’t drink our mothers milk, ( it might be poisoned ! ), without it we would not learn to walk ( we might fall ! ), without it we would not learn to talk ( words can be so painful ! ). I would argue that without it, we would not learn. Anything.

The Radical Response to Terror (The “Good” Kind)

When faced with terror, it is of course SUPER hard, to keep our hearts wide open, trusting the world.
It hurts SO much. It’s SO sad. And of course we feel SO hurt, and SO afraid, and our first reactions are quite logically reactions of self-preservation. At least it seems rational and logical in first instance. But it is then that we have to decide if we will let terror into our hearts, if we will let the fear it induces control us.  The goal of all terror is control. And someone who fears is easily controlled. Someone who fears is predictable. Someone who fears will definitely not try anything new, anything potentially harmful, anything as messy and definitely unsafe as… trust.
As strange as it may seem, as counter-intuitive (depending on the definition of this intuition), I am convinced with all of my heart that the only thing we can do to get through things like this, as an individual AND as a community, is to increase our trust in each other.
And if you disagree, please do argue with me. It’s so important.
I’m nuanced in most everything, I think, but this one doesn’t seem to be done justice, nuancing.

I think it is of vital importance to be a radical, extremist truster. 

And will it hurt? Undoubtable. But we have to trust that there is always more love available than we could ever possibly need to heal the wounds, to pick ourselves and each other up again from the floor and to continue on trusting and loving. More fearless than before. I believe in our capacity to love and to trust and I know that if we all join hands and love and trust like we have never done before, we will thrive, we will evolve into a force that is unstoppable by anything.

Why I wrote this

I want you to know this is not an article in which I’m trying to tell you what to do. It’s an article that I needed to write, for myself. To give myself the courage to trust. More than ever before. And I ask for your help. Because it’s not easy. It’s scary. So scary. But I’m doing it. Even if it is.
So please.
Will you please help me trust? Will you please trust me? Will you please trust yourself? Will you please trust the world?
Thank you.
I love you.
I trust you.

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Resolutions for 2015 I’m planning to keep

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1. Being the most loving human being I can be, in the profound experience & knowledge that when I give fully, and hold nothing back, I am truly living, and being myself in my most natural state, beneficial to myself AND everyone around me in the best possible way.

2. Supporting, sharing and promoting wonderful ecologic and humanly economic projects.

3.  Consuming as ethically, honestly and responsibly as possible in a fun way, supporting with my money and energy the production processes I believe in, and want to see more of in the world.
Asking myself with each action (as I’ve heard it is said Native Americans used to do) : ‘What will the effect of this action be, if it is repeated for 7 generations.’ Will it be wonderful or harmful? If it is harmful, why do it?

4.  Recycling and upcycling as much as possible, making treasure out of trash and if I can’t do it myself, having it done for me by these amazing people. (Don’t want to ruin the surprise, just check it out, you seriously won’t be sorry.)

5. Asking and accepting the help & support I need when I need it in the knowledge that asking and accepting help is allowing others into our hearts, that vulnerability doesn’t make me weak but actually reveals my true strength.

6. Finding what it is I can do to benefit the world and beings in it in the best way possible.

7. Appreciating all the beauty within each and every one of us, focussing on it so it can grow.

Happy 2015 sweet people. What are your resolutions you plan on keeping this year ?
Love –
The half of the couple of weirdos called
Susan

Resolutions for 2015 I plan on keeping.

Inspiring little image.

How to write a piece for Baroque ensemble and not get caught.

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So I’m working on a piece for Baroque ensemble. A bunch of passionate musicians playing recorder flutes, guitars, cello, harpsichord and double bass. And the greatest part is I’m really getting to learn a lot. This is because – believe it or not – I’ve never ever written for guitar. Nor have I ever written for recorder flutes. Nor is there a chapter on recorder flutes or more than half a page about a guitar in any of the books  I have on orchestration and music in my cupboard. Apart from the fact that this probably says something about the books I have in my closet, I am, to put it politely, in more than a jiffy… 🙂 Oh yeah have I mentioned it’s supposed to be for this week in Christian culture called The Good Week?  And I’m not really Christian (mom’s baptised but I’m not) … nor am I Jewish, really (dad’s Jewish, but technically I’m not because my mom’s not) … but I do have my own take on spirituality and was profoundly touched by a fabulous text which was posted on the blog called the ‘Diversity Chronicle‘. To read it click here. This text was being portrayed as speeches and other thoughts formulated by the new pope. Very inspirational words, which I hope he will actually speak for real one day. Still I do believe that this pope has more balls than his predecessors and I do believe positive change is on its way…

So anyway : this blog post of mine is about how to write this composition for amateur Baroque Ensemble – right? Well : basically I did the following :
0.  Have fun (repeat incessantly with every step)
1. Find inspiration. Yes – you read it correctly –  I didn’t say ‘WAIT until inspiration strikes’. Go get it. Find meaning in what you are doing, in what you are writing. If there’s no reason to do it, don’t do it. But I bet you there always is a connection to be found somewhere. Music should always transcend music itself. Now this may sound esotherical but it really isn’t. Transcending something to me is adding a meaning to it. When you are asked to write for cello, you should find a reason why you want to write for cello. Why there is the necessity to write a piece in the first place and second why it has to be cello.
2. When you’ve found that connection and have managed to put it into notes (more on this step later – I’m still writing a blog post and not a book here) you’re ready for the logistics.
3. Pick up a guitar and try to play what you wrote. If you can play it and you’re not a guitarist – that should mean any person having studied guitar for more than a week should be able to do it. So that’s already not bad.
4. Ask another guitar player to play it. I will ask Antoine to proof-play the harder guitar-parts I wrote – which I can’t play – but that doesn’t really mean much.
5. Realize that recorder flutes will always sound a bit off – and don’t worry too much about it. The reason for this is that apparently recorder flutes are not at all ‘uniform’ in how they were made. Recorder flutes from different ‘brands’ have different tunings and in most ensembles you will find all these brands of flutes mixed together. So that makes that even when you write notes that should sound great, technically speaking, you should be prepared for some sound waves crashing into each other.
6. Have the ensemble play your piece and listen to the recordings & live sounds. Correct where you feel it’s needed.
7. Have fun. (repeat this step at every step)

So I started this blog post some time ago – lost lots of thoughts I had written down as soon as I had hit publish the blog says like ‘oops something went wrong’. So before it does that again – and while it’s still relevant – I’ll quickly post it before re-reading. So please be compassionate with possible missssstakes – yes? Thank you oh so much…

Susan

The Secret to Eternal Life in our Vocabulary ?

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It’s curious and interesting that we would use the heart as a symbol of love.

The heart is what keeps us alive, it is our battery and when it has no power left we die.

Isn’t this telling us something ? Could infinite, unconditional love be the secret to eternal life ? I most certainly think so.

Antoine.

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Image : José de Páez, Sacred Heart of Jesus with Saint Ignatius of Loyola and Saint Louis Gonzaga, c. 1770

Our Planet is a fantastic musician

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I just heard about the ‘Symphonies of the Planets’ discs that NASA released in 1992. It was recorded by instruments on board the Voyager I and II spacecraft, and processed using digital sampling techniques. Basically these are the audible frequencies produced by the movements in Space.

Here’s a 3D rendition of the sounds recorded near our Planet Earth :

It strikes me how musical those sounds are. I hear a choir, I hear a bass, I hear rhythm and harmony. I even hear melody.

Now this is my call, I’m definitely going to sample that and orchestrate it. Maybe slice it here and there and create other rhythms and melodies with it. Not that it needs all that but maybe I do. What is for sure is : I’m loving it.

Antoine.

PS : After I was done writing this article a friend told me there is no such thing as an audible electromagnetic frequency, meaning that what NASA did here is pretty arbitrary. This would then have to be considered a human music composition more than a scientific work. Any thoughts on that? Please express them in the comments section of this post…